If we would stop trying so hard to get God to see us, instead, we should be doing our best to see God. That is when everything will become clearer - That's when everything becomes illuminated.
Exodus 33:18-19 New King James Version (NKJV)
18 And he said, “Please, show me Your glory.”
19 Then He said, “I will make all My goodness pass before you, and I will proclaim the name of the Lord before you. I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.”